Needig to Vent my Stress!

I am starting to feel very overwhelmed lately. I am wrapping up my last couple of lesson plans for the semester, and the topics I have turned out to be some tough themes to plan activities for! I have had to get really creative! I also have to make several more materials for my lessons i.e. a flip book story, an illustrated recipe, felt board story...and more! I also have to compile a video of like a bajillion little video clips to show certain examples of things in preschool. I then need to catch up on my policy book for my administrative issues class which is going to HOURS! I have so much homework to do and it is SO hard to do when Paxton starts banging on the keyboard or complaining because he want me to hold him. Since he has been sick he has become very clingy once I am home from school. Normally  I would just eat that up! I love getting to hold him and play with him and that is ALL I want to do! But the sooner I can finish school the sooner I can have that! I. JUST. NEED. TO. GET. MY. HOMEWORK DONE!!!  I don't know how I am going to do it. I have a feeling that I have a lot of late nights ahead of me. So that's my stress with school...My grandpa also passed away last Friday, which isn't super stressful, but it's still there in my mind, thinking about him and and wondering how my grandma is doing without him. I also just found out that my best friend is going to be moving back to Caldwell in the Spring (May) which really upsets me since I go to her to talk to her about pretty much anything and everything. I don't know how I am going to get through next semester without her! :( Paxton got over having RSV a week ago. Our car is also on it's last leg, so we are trying to find a good deal on a car that we can make payments on. My brother is helping us out on that one since he sells cars. Ugh! Can I just take a break from being a grown up? Can I just be a carefree child again! Can I just have someone make me my meals, buy me my clothes and help me with my homework again? Man! I sure took those years for granted! Psh! And I thought I wanted to grow up SO fast! Ok, ok...I really love getting to have my own rules and my own little family. It can just be so overwhelming at times! If you actually read through all of this, I am sorry. You really didn't have to, but it shows that you care and that really means something to me, especially right now. I guess I am feeling a little lonely these days since I leave in the morning for school and don't get to see Tyler until the evening when he gets home from work, and even then we don't get much time together because it gives me an opportunity to have him watch Paxton while I can give my homework my full attention. Ugh! Homework is ruining my life! (Ok, there is my juvenile teenager rant for you)...but seriously..I am SO ready for a break! Thanks again to those of you who cared to read especially with no pictures ;) I promise I will get something more uplifting up on the next post. I still need to post about my preschool trip! :)

Domestica

I have been trying really hard to be more..."domestic." You know, the dream wife. Well, I am far from that, but I have to pat myself on the back when I learn something new or I do something out of the ordinary. SO-Today's Sunday dinner special was Alaskan Salmon, and FRESH Asparagus with FRESH garlic which means YES I chopped up my own cloves of garlic! I usually just use garlic powder or something simple and quick. I also had no clue what I was doing with the asparagus, so I just kinda winged it. Started out with the asparagus and minced garlic in some oil...not much was happening, so I added some water and some butter and decided I could steam it. It worked! Tyler loved it! And the Salmon was delicious! After a little bit of salt and some pepper, it was perfect. I am pretty proud. Just don't look at my kitchen right now...I don't want to talk about it. :P It's probably the reason I don't cook big like this very often. Maybe when I have more kids and I can have them help me clean up. In other news...I go on a field trip for school next weekend to Salt Lake to tour some preschools! That will probably be my next post. Nervous about how Paxton and Tyler will do at night without me.